24 June 2010
Instances are the same as moments...many moments upon one another...an instant is a moment that is captured and isolated. A moment in time, an instant gone to pass.
Today marks day 1 of not smoking. I made the decision yesterday, in the heat of a hang over moment, and within an instant from making it, wondered if this time it would really stick. Because in an instant, change happens.
I have made the same decision many times, though this time I emptied my mind and came up with no reason to continue to smoke.
Mind over matter is all I can focus upon...making each moment an instance to decide and make a choice.
Matter over mind is how I lived for a very long time, out of emotion, habit, dysfunctional thinking and acting. When I realized my phase of acting out was not just some passing fancy, I created the space to format my thinking into a place of health. Health, with sound boundaries.
Boundaries of choice, appropriations of the heart.